Who else has read this book? Today I went to my last day of the computer technician course. It was mainly a blow-off day, I asked a few questions to my tutor about next year and working overseas. My city has very little jobs in networking but if I went overseas the pay would be better w00t. The pay's better everywhere it seems. I left around 11:30 for the library, I was going to have some private time to work on my creative journal.

Sitting down I thought I'd scroll through the young adults(lol I'm an adult) section to my left with my finger. Saw a book called "I Have Lived A Thousand Years: Growing Up In The Holocaust" and decided to have a quiz through it to decide if it was worth reading. Two hours later I had finished it, I was capitvated. Unless you live each day on the edge of death, your malnourished, boney body looking like a sixty-year old, your life is nowhere near as painful compared to what this authors been through.

People talk about the holocaust as an atrocity, if you read this book you will know that is an understatement. The bond between Elli and her mother are shown throughout the book. Courage is what saved them in the end. This is despite all the horrifying experiences they went through, despite knowing that almost all there family and friends died a painful and fearful death.

Thirty-five out of five-hundred jews managed to return to there town after the holocaust. She was one of them, her life would never be the same. Her childhood had been ripped away from her and by the time she returned to her school she felt like a foreigner. No one knew her old teacher, all her class mates were dead and none of them had to endure the cultural turmoil she went through.

Whatever you're going through remember things could always be worse. Remember that others have been through worse and survived to tell the tale. In those times many have thought they had escaped the dark ages. Let's hope we have.

Yeah the anime needs to die. The games are still nifty after 10 years or something. That said, for anyone who's wondering what the new anime's like here's a few facts:

() James gave his Cacnea away to a gym leader for training. In the pokemon world this means releasing, except for Charizard which gets the special privilege of popping up now and again because he's a dragon and the show needs a magical dragon creature the heroes can call on when things become troublesome. What a doofus.
() Brock still wants sex with everyone.
() Team Rocket still use a air balloon. An air balloon is a stupid way to escape, guys.
() Every physical move a pokemon uses it seems to leave a trail of light behind them. If a pokemon like bulbsaur used tackle attack, it wouldn't just try and ram into the pokemon, instead it would use a trail of light.
() Team Rocket still haven't managed to steal anything.
() A new dubber took over and they got new voices for the anime. They could of just used the old ones because they're not just exclusive to 4Kids and they were keen to keep working with them.
() You probably know that Gary turned into a pokemon professor but Ash met up with him again to help him save some pokemon from a villan. Gary had doofus hair that didn't look like his proper hair.
() There's a new girl called Dawn. She's calm and collected, pretty coolish. She's also 10, or so I heard in the anime. Hmmm a 10 year old girl, a 12 and 14 year old boy. How dodgey.
() May had a baby Squirtle that evolved into a Wartortle. Ashes Squirtle wasn't a baby but it didn't evolve. What a doofus face Ash is.
() The plot devices are kinda boring and overused, but the writing's still pretty good even though the voices aren't so great. They have some really nifty titles for episodes.
() Ashes new rival, Paul, is pretty spiffy. He's an asshat but he's quite powerful. He's like a dummed down version of Vegeta but without magic powers.

Want your view of the pokemon world to be turned upside down? Look at this: 4chan's Freudian Analysis of Pokemon

That is all. Time for sexercise!

I'm wondering if I should start wearing my entire heart on my sleeve even if it hurts. I could try taking the middle-path, like I usually try to do. I can try to trust some people more than others, say some things but hold off on others. But sometimes the people we trust the most can betray us and we feel like we're restricted and unable to express. The joy of being human is being able to express. Maybe I need to throw this idea of there being a middle-path out the window.

Is it better to rock the boat, even if everyone falls in just because you stand up to say we need a stronger boat for everyone to express themselves in? Maybe I should take up the attitude that I'll wear my heart on my sleeve but encourage others to take responsibility of there own emotions. Trying to tip-toe around issues some people have wont get rid of them but everyones afraid of what would happen if someone tried to get rid of the root.

Or maybe it's just this song making me feel sad. Here's a link to it! Yes it's an Ace of Base song. Yay! I hope this is a decent post for being made at 1:50 AM.

I had a glamorous root canal done today. Well the first stage of one anyway. They cut off the top, scrape out the nerve, put calcium hydroxide inside to kill all the bacteria and then put in a temporary filling. Now replace tooth with penis. It wasn't painful, just felt strange. The tooth had been uncomfortable for awhile and was difficult to chew with, it's complicated to explain what happened but it's all good now.


( Click Me For War Commentary! )



Time to get my mum a mothers day present. I wonder what to get her. I'm thinking some spiffy herbal soap from a shop in the mall would be good. They make wonderful presents. I gave some coconut shower lotion from there to my cousin and she loved it. Gave some citrusy soap to my sister and she loved it. Might see if they have anything strawberry for my dear mother. I love Ace of Base.

Enjoy kids! Kong_protocore knows who this guy is.

http://www.geocities.com/barry1986/Adam_playhouse.html


Check out his comic section:
http://mywebpage.netscape.com/pokefantasy2003/comics.html

Edit: Well what do you know he's big on youtube for making videos of himself playing fighting games.
http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=Barrysun

Went to the mall hoping to buy a few things to do up my room. I found a drawing sketch kit with pastels, pencils, sharpener, eraser, a few others bobs at the mall bookstore that was heavily discounted($50 down to $12.50 NZ) so I bought it. I also found a nifty book on sketching done by two london art teacher guys. It has the basics which is what I'm looking for. I always think if you want to master something master the basics. I found out that it was discounted too($32.99 down to $8.25 NZ). Yipee! So I'll probably practice it for 20 minutes a day or something yay.

I'm going to draw good enough so that I could draw my own manga. I probably already could but it'd be crappyish and the characters wouldn't be as detailed in my mind as they'd be if I just drew them myshelves. I get all sorts of ideas for what I could draw. So I could just draw concept designs and then start putting them together in story writing yay.

Go meh. I found a place online to watch pokemon anime episodes and watched the new pokemon diamond and pearl anime. As cheesy as it is, I felt like playing Pokemon while watching it.


In other news, as part of my journal thing I'm going to try doing up my room w00t w00t. I already cleaned out some stuff today. I want it to look like a secure, welcoming place. Somewhere I can seduce unwary travelers in. I'm thinking of adding these little trinklets to it:

- A little sheep doll
- A little kiwi doll
- A little sheep dog doll
- A house plant or two
- A crystal I laike or two, I already have a stone from the river I was born in. I'm thinking amethyst and sapphire. I already have an amethyst in this house.
- A little dragon thingy
- A incense burner, to burn incense MWHAHHAAHA

I'm also at looking at getting a photo(from a digital picture) in a photoframe that's a of the countryside next to my bedside. Something I can wake up to. I'm thinking about one of these pictures:
Picture 1
Picture 2
Picture 3


Any thoughts?

( Post funny pics and shite plz )

Good morning it's 1:20 AM.

( This Part's about Friendship )

I'm making a sort of creative journal. It's a clear, stylish orange folder with dividers in it. One section's for personal journaling(sorry guiz), another's for ideas I make or drawings I have, another's a section for goals, and another section for inspiration and tips. There's another section where I can dissect and focus on different parts of my laife.

I'll be sticking in things I like in it and goals I have. Here's two of those goals: Get into cycling and start drawing again. I use to love drawing a lot even though the drawings were crummy. One day when I was depressed I stopped drawing, I decided it wasn't worth it because I felt someone else can draw better than I can and express ideas better than I could. Now that I'm older I know that I I can also train myself to just draw better. There's lots of ways to do it. One of the things I want to do is make character designs of the characters in my head. One of thems a humanoid dog with magical powers who can fly around with his long ears. Another's a knight who doesn't know it but he was secretly born from a prostitute and the dark emperor so he has destructive magical powers woo. Maybe it'll become a manga! Also cycling can be phunz.

I also have two comics I use to love drawing. One was called Camp David which I named after myself. It was a budget camp where kids ate cat food and dirty diarrheas water. The equipment would be shitty so a kid would climb up the mountain but his harness is made out of glue and bluetac so it falls apart and his body smashes to the ground. The other one's skank hoe-rag which was about stereotypes. There'd be high-rider boy who was like kenny and died in each episode. Yay

Y helo thar, why do I have a story for you! =D

I had a dream where a bunch of bikers were going around my street. It's a crescent so they were going around and around. One of them decided to go into my house so he slammed down the door and cause a mess in my house. He was only here for a short while then he left. I wanted to grab a metal baseball bat and smash his head in if he came here again. I looked outside and other bikers were going into peoples houses and smashing up the houses. I felt sorry for others. Another biker came into my house and smashed stuff again. He broke and demolished everything except the television.

Me and my dad were wondering when the police would arrive. We turned on the news and it said the apocalypse had happened and no one could fight back against the bikers. Everyone was leaving town because of them. I didn't know what to say. The sky was blue but it had a tint of gray in it. The bikers were still going into peoples houses and messing things up. Eventually it got a bit cloudy and the bikers had dissapeared.

I found out everyone had died except for me, my dad, Alf Strewart who is an old man from an Australian soap opera called Home and Away, five little black girls and our airedale Max. I was deeply afraid that Max would be killed because he'd "way us down". There was a man-made raft in our house that looked like it was Native American made. There were feathers on it and patterns w00t. Thankfully I woke up before anything really bad happened.

This guys guitar song playing gave me an orgasm. I love old RPG music: Terrangima - Underworld, one of the most beautiful haunting overworld tracks ever

A young girl went missing two weeks ago. Her friends and family placed posters all around town. The national news told that she'd disappeared. Her friends dropped her off home at night, her parents were up north and weren't home for the weekend. Then the police were tipped off that they should search the Waimakariri river here. It's a beautiful flowing river on the outskirts of Christchurch. It's very captivating to watch in the early morning. It's name means cold water in Maori.

They found a few belongings of hers and a body. Now it's over the news that "They've found a body they haven't identified yet" and the high school she went to has taken it as a sign that she's died. I feel very sorry for the family and angry at the news. They used her disappearance and possible death as a drama for everyone to gawk at. I'm sorry for the family but did the news want me to do something about it? Conjure a spirit up and tell me where she or her body is? Publicity can be sucky. On the one hand everyone knew she was missing and could ring a number if they saw anything or knew anything. On the other hand people now want to know if she's dead or not.

Also int he news, it'll be ANZAC day very soon on the 25th of April. ANZAC = Australian and New Zealand Army Corps. People will be commemorating the day over 10,000 young men got sent out to Turkey to die in 1915. It was badly screwed up, the british used them as fodder to stall the turkish for a little bit. The NZ and Ozy troops came off the sea in boats, it was cold and dark. They went up a mountain cliff face and the Turkish soldiers were on top and were told to shoot them. Should politicians decide when young men should die?

I seem to be doing good in technicians class. I'm learning a lot, now I'm onto the networking part of it I've been told that's where the money is so I should learn about it real well yay. I really want to do good at this. 5 weeks left.

Here's an article about a disabled person writing erotica.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYgu2cnsWxo

I editted this video about a rabbit who teaches kids about how to brush there teeth. I inserted my own fake voices in it yay. Go watch!

Woke up at lunch time, only feeling a little weak. It seems the bug's over in time for the weekend. Yay I wont be conquered out all weekend w00t!

Ah well, I'm going to get better. Just give it some time and be careful with how you eat. Nothing solid for tea. It's funny to watch yourself throw up dinner from the night before and go "Oooh, I remember that!".

( Post about sick people )

Go me!

Screw you guys, I'm doing my own thing. Fuck what others think, it's all about me at the end of the day. Everyone is living on insecurities instead of themselves. I hate that, you're all cowards. You can't face your own innate instincts. Come join me, tell the world to go fuck itself. I met this great guy, his name's Tory, he's my new lover and I'm going over to his house tonight. He's so sweet and beautiful. We're going to do E together then listen to Nirvana all night long. Fuck technicians course, money can't buy me the truth. The medias a bunch of slags, they only want you to hear what sounds good. 50,000 people die in a mine in Chili, yeah sorry for your loss families but what the hell do you want me to do about it? Fuck the media.

To commemorate this day I wrote a poem.

Tao of Chaos

My views on what I want
Can distort the views of myself
When I let go of my fears
I let go of my thoughts
When I let go of my thoughts
I let go of my views
When I let go of my views there I see
The whole truth staring back at me

It's been six years since I've felt better. I've been having treatment for chronic pain and discomfort. I don't want to say too much about it other than that it seems to be working. There's a lot of politics when people talk about health. I feel sorry for anyone who has to deal with it.

Yesterday my friend had a farewell party. She's moving to Australia because the pays better over there. I'll miss her, she was like a sister to me. I meant to talk to her more but hey. The party was going great up until the end. Two couples were having a argument about custody battles. There was almost a fist fight. Thankfully no one got hurt except a woman who was pushed over and my friends father being stabbed with this womans nails. He's a tough person though.

My family's arguing about Max. He's a lovely dog but our house isn't big enough for him. He might need to be given to another home. Me and my dad would be sad to see him go.

I have felt held back over the years by my emotions like guilt and sadness, a lot of us have. I am trying to purge them from me. I don't see any use in them anymore, the past cannot be changed. It would be nice if we lived in a happy dappy sunshine world but we live on earth. Earth is our home, it may not seem like much but it is home.

Talking about Earth, there's an Earth hour thing going on. People will be shutting off power at 8:00 PM on Saturday for an hour to conserve energy. I don't think it will get to the root of the problem. Everyone wants power to power there computer, have lights on or to fry fish. But right now clean energy sources can't provide all that power. Some places don't get any wind, some aren't near an ocean. Scientists have been saying for years we need a dynamic, clean energy source that can give power on a mass scale. But economic powers don't seem to have much focus on that as I think they could, that seems to be the problem.

I don't fear getting old. I fear getting rejected because I'm old. My grandmother's 101, she is a lovely person at heart but she has been cruel and vindictive over the years. She's from Yorkshire, not sure if that has anything to do about it. Sometimes people have learned to cope with society by being angry, you can't be hurt by someone if you hurt them first. There are a lot of old people in mental asylums who have been rejected by there families, people who use to go fishing, joke about sex, listen to music and laugh about stupid things just like the rest of us. They have been left there with some medication for there arthritis/diabetes/skin problems to die. I don't want to be in that situation.

My friend over in Tasmania is going to be doing a Radio program about New Zealand music! He's asked me to help yay. I'm going to be his reporter in New Zealand who'll gather info on local bands touring NZ and such. I feel privileged, he'll play stuff like OMC, Crowded House, Elemeno P and Shona Laing. Probably have a NZ Music history segment w00t. I wonder if this post has anything to do with listening to Moby. I love his music, everyone else I talk to seems to hate it argh.

That's all for now. ILY Go fuck a lawn mower.

For four weeks I've been on a bit of an exercise routine with home weights. I'm pleased to report it has gone well for me and I've lost fat w00t w00t. I also look like a more muscular d00d. Soon I'll be posting my pics on myspace so young girls can fap to them. Oh wait young girls don't fap.

Just reporting my little success tehehehe. I am proud though. I set up the routine, made a list with little check boxes for each weight set I did. It was spiffy and I lost weight w00t.

I want everyone to be happy and for everyone to get along. But I don't like the fact that it will probably never happen. I find it hard sometimes to figure out who has my best interests at heart. I want to do the right thing. Sure I can lead a horse to water but it can't make it drink it. I can only help someone so much until they must help themselves.

Some people are scared of assertiveness. But you need to be assertive if you're going to get what you want in life, weither people like it or not, weither it hurts someone or not. People get scared you'll do better than them, but no one betters anyone in this world. We could all die tomorrow or this minute. You could own billions of dollars but you'd always face death.

It probably doesn't help that I'm listening to Moby rofl. Still it's sweet music. Gee what a negative post. Here's a video of a Koala.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w06tXEzP9G8

(psst don't be afraid, every LJ needs at least one depressing post. Besides if I don't like this post I can always delete it.)

Edit: I also wrote a story about potatoes and sheep porn yesterday.

1. Reply to this post, and I will pick three of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon squee. Whoo!

The icons I have been asked to talk about are:



1. This is Klonoa from the PSX game Klonoa: Door to Phantomile. In this game you play Klonoa, a resident of The Wind Village. He has a strange dream where a plane crashes into a mountain and the world gets vividly destroyed. One day a plane does crash into a mountain and he goes to take a look. This leads him on a quest to stop the evil lord Ghadius, who wants the world to be consumed by nightmares. He has a friend called Huepow who lives in his magic ring that inflates enemies which he can throw at other enemies or use it to break eggs open. It's one of the best, underrated games in existence.

I'll fill the rest in later lawl.